Greetings & Salutations! It has been almost 3 years since I posted anything, and for that my sincerest apologies. It has been a tumultuous couple of years that have thrown me in many directions with a lot of unexpected changes...some good, some bad, a little tragic at times, but I'm still here. Bursts of unexpected laughter got me through a lot, and gave me a lifeline to hold onto while being in survival mode, rendering everything else to the back burner.
There are no guarantees in life, your world can be ripped apart at a moment's notice. Sometimes one traumatic incident isn't what is thrown at you, but multiple things all at once from a merciless universe. Anyway, you know what 'they' say, "If it doesn't kill you, it makes you stronger". During hard times and a cruel sky, hope and faith for a brighter tomorrow prevailed and it still does. I'm back to share my thoughts once again, with a sometimes non linear timeline, and a dose of my moody sense of humour here and there...
The heart is a complex and wonderful little organ which keeps us alive by pumping blood in our veins. It allows us to breathe freely, which in turn keeps us healthy and alive. Any blockages in one or more artery can suddenly alter everything. Life as you know it is changed forever.
Heart surgeons are life savers. Through modern science and technological advancements, they are able to take arteries from other parts of the body and transplant them elsewhere, in order to bypass the blockages and allow the blood to flow freely once again. A second chance is given to begin to heal physically and emotionally with hopes to resume life one day at a time, and being thankful for every breath that is taken.
The interesting thing is...having open heart surgery doesn't mean that your heart will finally be open, where the blockages prevented not only the blood from flowing but perhaps the love from flowing. The irony is that one can have open heart surgery, have their chest ripped apart, put back together again and the heart can remain closed.
The person you stood by during the most difficult time in their life, holding their hand, hoping and praying for their survival and recovery, providing love and hope in their time of need, can shut you out of their life with no warning. Pre-surgery The Complicator and I got so very complicated. Post surgery, it appears that my relationship is becoming well... un-complicated.
I guess the heart wants what it wants, when it wants...
Moody Girl Out.
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